22nd February 2025

15:57pm | Mood: Meh

Sitting like a werido on these odd kneeling chairs has got to be a new hobby of mine. I know you're supposed to keep your back straight when you use them, but I keep slouching after a few minutes.

Starting to feel that there is a way out of this current slump I'm in - which is great! I haven't done much this week, but honestly I need to stop thinking my value is directly linked to my efficency, about how much stuff I'm getting done after work hobbies wise. It's nice to set myself self imposed ddeadlines and goals but I shouldn't feel bad if I don't meet those goals. Sometimes it's okay to have a lazy month. No one can be perfect 100% of the time.

I had my contraceptive implant replaced on the 27th Jan and this past week I've been having a few issues with it. I leant back into bed on Tuesday night and felt this awful pain down my arm, like it was trying to pierce my skin. Needless to say I've got a check up booked on Monday, so I'm hoping that it goes well and doesn't need replacing again. Maybe my implant replacement is a reason why I'm feeling extra glum recently? I do feel like I'm about to start my period any minute now.

Speaking of periods, I've been thinking of learning to sew cloth menstrual pads. I use cloth menstrual pads almost all of the time when I'm on my period and have done for years now, and was hoping to sew my own liners for lighter days - specifically the thong type, as I find using the regular liner types a bit uncomfortable when wearing thong-type underwear. I have a lot of scrap fabric and I love thinking of ways to use it all up. I'm also hoping to sew one of my dresses into a skirt, I just need to watch a couple YouTube tutorials first, but it looks quite easy.

peace x

15th February 2025

15:24pm | Mood: Achey

I've been making a mental note these past couple days to keep track of the things I've been doing (big or small) to help me find little joys whilst I've been feeling glum. Having everything written down seems to make everything seem more real, once it's visualised I suppose? Anyway, here is my 'done' list:

• Patched Nostalgia.forum to a new version.
• Finished knitting a dog sweater, just need it to finish drying on my radiator before I can upload some lovely pics of the pooch in question wearing it to my Ravelry!
• Frogged back about 50% of a cardigan I was knitting as I had knitted it too long and managed to get it back onto the needles in the end, something I had never done before.
• Went to the gym yesterday and hip thrust 100kg
• Packed lunch for work twice in a row.
• Organised a meeting for our next zine.
• Went out and got two new bras; it has been years since I took the time to properly measure myself and thoroughly look for pairs that both feel good and are of high quality.
• Began ticking off a long list of 'to dos' at work that has been on a virtual stickie note on my desktop for the longest time.

Hoping that the rest of this weekend will be good... this weekend's tasks/events/things I'd like to do include:

• Go to a thrifted clothes fair
• Bleach my roots and dye my hair
• Have a meeting for the next zine
• Finalise the quilt pattern for my next quilt, and wash, dry & press the fabrics.
• See if I can squeeze in an hour or two of painting time for myself. As a treat.

12th February 2025

9:38pm | Mood: blahhh

Well, my Bloganuary didn't work out as well as I thought it would. Work is buuuuusy, and all I want to do when I get home from work is nap and doom scroll til I realise it's too late to do anything worthwhile with my evening, so I go to bed, where I ultimately doom scroll for another couple hours.

I've been feeling in a slump for a little while. Just tired of everything, my hobbies both online and offline, going to the gym, anything that requires an attention span longer than 5 minutes. It's hard to break out of this feeling, not to mention I'm feeling under the weather too. I wonder if the two are related?
I know I need to be more forgiving to myself, it's normal to just want to rot in bed for a while (is it?), but when your hobbies are very public (Salvaged.nu, @00sbloglayouts on IG, Nostalgia.forum) I feel like I'm letting people down. I do all of these projects solo, and I don't want to spread myself too thin with these things. 'Blah' is how I can really describe this feeling. blah.

I hope I can feel well enough to do things soon. For now, I'm gonna make a cup of tea and crawl back into my bed.