24th July 2025

16:00 | Mood: blaaah

left work early yesterday and had today off as I was feeling terrible. I didn't sleep very well on Tuesday night and felt more awful the longer the day went on, so I went home early. I still felt pretty bad this morning, so I've spend today taking it easy and drinking water. I think I've felt better as the day has gone on, so I'll try going to work tomorrow. I can always go home if I feel bad.
I'm weaning my self off the amitriptyline, so I'm thinking that might have something to do with it... Ugh. I'll see if I can get a pill cutter or something as taking the pills every other day seems to be affecting me. Maybe just reducing the dose by will help?

Not much else from me. Think I'm gonna make a jam bagel, get a hot water bottle, make a cup of tea and catch up on my YouTube watch list in bed.

20th July 2025

14:30 | Mood: okay

Past two weeks have been nice and painfree. I haven't really taken painkillers at all the past 14 days, and I've decided to start weaning myself off the amitriptyline. I bleached & dyed my roots at the weekend and my back was sore for a few days afterwards, so my back/bulged disc is still healing. But I don't think I would have been able to even think about doing my roots in May/June! Feeling thankful that I'm able to do the simple things.

Last weekend my parents and sister visited, it's always lovely to have them visit. I get homesick a lot, it's hard for me to book work off and travel home frequently. Especially with an elderly cockatiel at my parents house, I want to make sure I can visit him as much as I can. ♥

HOWEVER, I've booked two weeks off from work in three weeks time! I'm so excited. I'm visiting my parents for 4 days and then heading to spend 3 days in London visiting a few online friends. We're going full tourist; going to visit Buckingham Palace, Big Ben, London Eye, see all the sights. I'll have a week off afterwards too to recover from all the travelling, and catch up with my hobbies. Kind of want to spend as little time on the internet as possible for these days, really disconnect and relax whilst I have the chance.

I'm thinking of getting my nails done for the first time ever. I have no idea where to start... lol

7th July 2025

19:47 | Mood: Okay

Had my follow up appointment over the phone this morning, the doctor said there was a slight disc bulge between L5 and S1 (anyone knowledgeable about spines please drop your knowledge in the cbox) BUT also said that it could be just how my spine is normally, i could have had it for years, or it could have been the thing that caused the pain and is healing.
I would bet on it being the third option (having probably been more 'bulged' when the injury initially happened?) so when I feel ready, I'm going to concentrate on strengthening my core. Maybe I'll even get the help of a personal trainer? Hmm.

Just this short entry today I guess. I just finished darning some socks and now I'm gonna get my lunch packed for work tomorrow.

5th July 2025

21:41 | Mood: Tired

My MRI results came back! Turns out my spine is satisfactory and there is no sign of soft tissue compression on nerve roots or damage to the spine. My back pain is nearly all gone... I occasionally get the nerve-type pain down my leg but it's very muted and not nearly as bad as it was. I am going to see if I can book a doctors appointment on Monday to have a follow up, I still have plenty of questions. What is it/what was it? Could it have been something we mentioned earlier, but has since healed? How do I make sure it doesn't happen again? Do I continue my physiotherapy/amitriptyline? I'm excited to get back into the gym, just want to wait for the doctor's go-ahead first.

Been quite productive today too. Did a bunch of zine work, quilted, vacuumed the floors, tidied, did the dishes, all the fun stuff. I'm happy I'm feeling back to normal.