21st September 2025

19:42 | Mood: Impatient

I consider myself a pretty patient person. Until it comes to my health. I'm frustrated that this nerve pain is still kicking my butt (and thighs, and calves, and toes sometimes) even though I know it takes amitriptyline a few weeks to work properly. I'm irritated that I sometimes forget I can't lift hevay things and then get a horrible spasm in my leg when I do. I'm worried that I won't be able to live the life I was so used to, even though I know it could be so much worse. I guess I just want to get a head start on recovery, such as pilates, getting a personal trainer, perhaps seeing a sports injury therapist, going on long walks. Blah.

- If my amitriptyline does not 'kick in' in another week, I'll get a doctors appointment to see if I can increase the dose. Perhaps even get my MRI results printed out?
- Once the amitriptyline has worked, I'll see my physiotherapist and get the 'okay' to begin a pilates class.
- Once pilates is going well, I'd like to see a personal trainer. Or maybe a sports injury therapist if I feel I need it (MRI results would come in handy here)

If you can't tell, I'm the kind of person who needs everything planned out, but unfortunately recovery isn't linear and it's difficult to know when I'll be 'ready'.
My biggest concern is these tickets I have to a gig next year - it's standing tickets, and it's gonna be a long long longggg time standing up. It's not til July... but still. I want to be ready for then. I don't want to injure myself but still want to have a good time :(

13th september 2025

17:02 | MOOD: kinda okay

What has happened in the past two weeks... WELL I hurt my back again! Not as 'bad' as last time, I have been to the doctor and I'm back on the amitriptyline for the nerve pain. Physio and Doctor seem to agree that I was just unlucky and have just irritated a nerve. Gotta get back on those 3x daily exercises, and when I feel better, look into strengthening my core. I might give at home pilates a go before I brave going to a class. There is a pilates class that it held pretty close to where I live, so it's a possibility. I don't want this happening to me every 3-4 months.

Work has been busier than ever. Having a week off work for my back last week was not great for the old to do list. But it was great for my Netflix 'to watch' list... hehe. I'm almost finished watching 'Dr Slump', a korean drama. Sometimes you just need some feel-good romantic/comedy/drama to enter your eyeballs whilst you knit baby clothes for your expectant colleague.

Hoping to spend some time tonight knitting, spending time with my partner, and an early night. Damn, those amitriptylines really do work.